Relentless

Relentless

Relentless – Continuing in a determined way without any interruption (Cambridge Dictionary)

When I think about this year, relentless is the first word that comes to mind. Take a moment and reflect on it. Has not the year of 2020 continued in a determined way without any interruption? Has it not continued in delays, in disappointments, and in death? Has it not continued in hatred, in greed, and in injustice? Has it not continued in tears, in isolation, and in frustration? It has continued. Incessant. Firm. Unyielding. How has it been going for you? Regardless of whether you’ve barely been touched or you’ve been deeply hurt and broken by the events of this year, none of us can say we haven’t been challenged in some way. Our lifestyles have been abruptly changed. Our trust in systems have been questioned. Our family dynamics have been strained. Our mental, physical, and spiritual health have been tried. The year of 2020 has been relentless. There has been no escape.

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” – James 1:2-4

So what’s the point? Why did 2020 hit us so hard? While I won’t pretend to definitively answer a question only God could with certainty, I do realize that some of God’s best work in us comes through adversity. Think back on some of 2020’s toughest moments thus far. Take Kobe Bryant’s death for instance. His death, for many of us, was extremely heartbreaking and difficult to accept. As the intimate stories about his life and the impact he had on and off the court took center stage, many of us began to reflect on our own lives. Were we living lives of purpose or were we simply settling for good enough? For some of us, his death lit a God ignited fire within us. No longer content with wasting time, our priorities shifted to doing things in this world that would last and have God given impact. What about this current pandemic? Have you done any soul searching and self evaluation with all this time to yourself in isolation? Has the constant reminder of death made you confront your false sense of immortality and seek a real relationship with Jesus before it’s too late? What about the high levels of unemployment and volatility in the stock market? What did that mean for your bank account and your ideas of stability and prosperity? Did being stuck with your kids 24/7 develop patience in you? If not yet patience (I know y’all are tired!), at least a new level of empathy and appreciation for those who care and teach them everyday? Let’s not forget the racial injustices we’ve witnessed this year. Did seeing someone die unjustly ignite your fight for justice and truth? Did you have to learn what it really meant to love and pray for those who persecute you? (Matthew 5:44) This could go on and on. My point, however, is simple. The relentlessness of 2020 gave us the opportunity to address and heal things within us that otherwise may have gone unchecked. For all the pain that this year has provided, the beauty of gratitude, grace, and growth has still been ever present. Count it all joy.

“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.” – John‬ ‭3:16-17‬ ‭

God also comes to mind when I think of the word relentless. When we think about who God is and what He has done for us, it’s clear that His love has always continued in a determined way. It has never failed to save, protect, discipline, build, renew, and heal us. It has never failed to forgive, to grant mercy, to be long-suffering, and to stretch us for His glory and our growth. Even when we have ignored or rejected His love for us, that same love has still remained ever present, ever enduring, and ever willing. Can you pinpoint His relentless love for you even in the midst of this relentless storm of life?

Max Lucado, a Christian author, once said “God loves you just the way you are, but refuses to leave you that way.” While that statement is evident in the life, death, and resurrection of Christ, as shown in this scripture, it’s no less clear in the year 2020. God is after our hearts and our affections. He wants us to be dependent on Him. He wants us to be humble and obedient in all that He calls us to do. He wants us to have a heart of gratitude. He wants us to be a giver. He wants us to be like Christ, in words and in actions. Let this season of pruning and refining finish its work. Let this year of relentlessness birth in you all that you are meant to be, for Christ, for yourself, and for each other.

“For you, God, tested us; you refined us like silver. You brought us into prison and laid burdens on our backs. You let people ride over our heads; we went through fire and water, but you brought us to a place of abundance.” – Psalms‬ ‭66:10-12

This pain isn’t in vain, twentysomethings ❤️

Hey Mighty Warrior!

Hey Mighty Warrior!

Fear.

This invisible giant taunts and threatens many of us day after day. We’re not good enough. We’re not brave enough. We’re not strong enough. We’re not capable enough. How do you handle these attacks? Do you shrink back or rise up to the occasion? While I’ve shrunk back more times that I’d like, this current pandemic has felt like a personal challenge from the Lord to step up to the plate for His kingdom.

Admittedly, this challenge hasn’t been the most pleasant. While I have spent some days in the calm of hope, the majority of my days have been in mental fights against forceful waves of frustration. Why can’t I rise up in faith? Why do I keep meeting God’s calls with hesitancy, or worse, paralysis? Is God going to dump me in irritation and move on to someone more willing? In one of my more recent moments of frustration, God, graciously, provided me with some encouragement that I want to share with you. Let’s dive into the story of Gideon: a guy very much like me and probably a lot like you too.

“The angel of the Lord came and sat down under the oak in Ophrah that belonged to Joash the Abiezrite, where his son Gideon was threshing wheat in a winepress to keep it from the Midianites. When the angel of the Lord appeared to Gideon, he said, “The Lord is with you, mighty warrior.” “Pardon me, my lord,” Gideon replied, “but if the Lord is with us, why has all this happened to us? Where are all his wonders that our ancestors told us about when they said, ‘Did not the Lord bring us up out of Egypt?’ But now the Lord has abandoned us and given us into the hand of Midian.”The Lord turned to him and said, “Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of Midian’s hand. Am I not sending you?” “Pardon me, my lord,” Gideon replied, “but how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family.””
‭‭ – Judges‬ ‭6:11-15‬ ‭NIV‬‬

When we meet Gideon, he is hiding in a winepress to avoid the oppression of the Midianites. Midian, an enemy country of Israel during this time, was known to destroy and steal the food and possessions of the Israelites. It is surprising then, as Gideon hides in fear, that the angel of the Lord greets Gideon with the name “mighty warrior.” Not missing a beat, Gideon looks at his fear, his current circumstances, and his overwhelming inadequacies and immediately rejects the title. Have you, like Gideon, ever disqualified yourself when God tried to give you a new name? He may have called you something spiritual like righteous or worthy or forgiven. He may have called you something natural like business owner, first generation college graduate, or mommy. Whatever it is, how did you handle His name for you? Did you look at your lack of a spouse, your lack of mentorship, your constant mistakes, or your innumerable flaws and tell God it wasn’t possible? If so, trust me, you’re not alone!

While our automatic disqualifications may seem sensible, they’re nothing more than detrimental and stifling. Furthermore, in the act of disqualifying ourselves, we end up committing an even greater offense. Look again at the angel’s declaration. What’s the critical piece of information Gideon discredited? The Lord is with you. Can we talk about the ease in which we also disqualify God because we don’t understand His plans?
God put me here but…
God gave me the desire but…
God told me but…
It’s the “but” that often keeps us stuck in the paralysis of fear. Take a second to think about your excuses. What would happen if we actually put respect on God’s name and track record? What would happen if we finally saw the value in His presence? What would happen if we actually gave Him a fair shot to prove Himself true? God tells Gideon (us) that He’s the one initiating the sending. If He’s sending then He’s implying that we will be victorious. Unfortunately, many of us shut Him out before He can even finish the sentence. When did we become too big for God to handle? When did our situation become too complex for God to understand? When did the power of our fears trump the all knowing and all powerful God of the universe? Many of us need to re-evaluate our view of God. He’s the God who caused the planets to be, who gave you breath, and who saved your life. When did those things become common? When did those things become not enough? I pray that as we meditate on His word we would rekindle our reverence and awe for Him. He’s big enough to carry us through our fears. Will we let Him?

“Gideon said to God, “If you will save Israel by my hand as you have promised— look, I will place a wool fleece on the threshing floor. If there is dew only on the fleece and all the ground is dry, then I will know that you will save Israel by my hand, as you said.” And that is what happened. Gideon rose early the next day; he squeezed the fleece and wrung out the dew—a bowlful of water. Then Gideon said to God, “Do not be angry with me. Let me make just one more request. Allow me one more test with the fleece, but this time make the fleece dry and let the ground be covered with dew.” That night God did so. Only the fleece was dry; all the ground was covered with dew.” – Judges‬ ‭6:36-40‬ ‭NIV‬‬

I’m currently learning that the call God has for each of us is truly a journey. There will be moments of great confidence and great fear all along the same path. This truth is not something we should shy away from but rather embrace wholeheartedly. One of the most beautiful things about God, as shown in this passage, is that He is more gracious towards us than we sometimes give Him credit for. While He can often be no nonsense, He can also be extremely gentle and patient. Take a look again at Gideon. Despite Gideon’s acceptance of the call (Judges 6:24), he later suffered another moment of fear. With a need for reassurance, Gideon asked God to perform a miracle as confirmation of his victory. Though God didn’t have to, without fuss, He performed the miracle. Still unsure, Gideon respectfully asked God to do another. Clearly, Gideon was scared. He needed to be absolutely certain that this was really what God called Him to before confronting the battle head-on.

How did God react when Gideon requested the second miracle? Did God rebuke him? Did God get annoyed, change His mind, and not use Gideon? No! God performed the signs Gideon asked. Because God is a God of love, of empathy, of grace, and of comfort, He met Gideon where He was. This exchange helped me to realize the power of dependency. As shown through Gideon, God honors our need for help. He honors our need for reassurance. He honors our desire to please Him even in our fears. He wants us to come to Him for strength so that our trust and confidence in Him can grow. Moreover, because of our dependency, when the victory is won (and it will be!), there will be no doubt as to Who gets the glory. I plead with you to never feel ashamed of or shrink away from your need for help. Remember, God can’t help someone who thinks they don’t need it. Let the pride go. Pastor Steven Furtick said it best: “The end of yourself is the beginning of grace.”

“Gideon and the hundred men with him reached the edge of the camp at the beginning of the middle watch, just after they had changed the guard. They blew their trumpets and broke the jars that were in their hands. The three companies blew the trumpets and smashed the jars. Grasping the torches in their left hands and holding in their right hands the trumpets they were to blow, they shouted, “A sword for the Lord and for Gideon!” While each man held his position around the camp, all the Midianites ran, crying out as they fled.” – Judges‬ ‭7:19-21‬ ‭NIV‬‬

The victory belonged to Gideon the moment God called him a mighty warrior. Though God knew it, Gideon needed to see it for himself. Through this journey, full of bold steps of faith and cries for reassurance, Gideon was able to see that God could be trusted not only for this battle but for anything Gideon would need in his life. Similarly, in whatever we’re called to do, God knows our true name. He’s willing to go through the journey with us as long as we’re open enough to let Him in. As I continue to walk on this journey of faith over fear, I pray that you would join me. We’ve got work to do for the Lord and it is only by the strength of God that we will get it done. Take the first step and let Him tell you your name without interruption. Be open enough to accept it before you understand how it could be accomplished through someone like you. Remember, His strength is made perfect in your weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). I can’t wait to see the fullness of your name realized.

Keep fighting for the true you, twentysomethings ❤️

P.S. If you ever need reassurance about God’s devotion to your victory, mediate on Isaiah 41:13-16.